I sit here on Christmas Eve getting ready to go to sleep and can not believe it is already Christmas tomorrow and we are getting closer to it being a new year. As I think back this past year it is such a blur. Part of me feels like it flew by, and the other part of me feels like it was a never ending year. Christmas is such a special time to spend with family and celebrate the birth of Christ, and it is truly one of my favorite times of the year. Last Christmas, my family received some horrible news that my mom had breast cancer. As I look back at this last year and relive the memories I want to just burst in to tears from all the pain and heart ache my family (especially my mom) had to go through. I remember how in shock and in disbelief I was when I found out my mom had breast cancer...and still to this day it seems very surreal. You never think those types of things will happen to someone so close to you, and when they do it can literally be life changing. Last Christmas my mom and I got in a horrible fight and I said some really mean things out of anger (not my proudest moment...). It was the next day that I found out my mom could possibly have breast cancer. I was so mad at myself for getting in an argument with her on Christmas...and I couldn't help but think after that "What if she doesnt make it until next Christmas and this is how I will always remember my last Christmas with my Mom?!" I dont like to live life with regrets, but if I could take back that day, that argument, I would in a heart beat.
I am happy to be able to sit here and type out that I do indeed get to spend another Christmas with my mom. Tomorrow I am more excited than ever to spend the entire day with the people that mean the most to me in the whole world. AND I am even more excited to be able to say that my mom is healthy and CANCER FREE. Praise God!! My family has a lot to celebrate this Christmas. To say the least 2012 was not very nice to my family in a lot of ways. However, I think that through all the trials and tribulations that this past year brought, my family is now closer because of it. That is something that I will never take for granted and that I am so thankful for. You never know when something bad can happen, and you truly have to live every day to the fullest. Tell the ones you love that you love them any moment you can. Dont be fearful of the bad things happening, but be happy and celebrate the life God has given you. Christ came to earth specifically to die for us so that we could live and honor God in everything we do. This Christmas I am reminded of that more than ever. And when things are tough, you just have to remind yourself that God is in control. If He brings you to it, He will bring you through it :)
Jeremiah 29:11 "For I know the plans I have for you, declares the Lord, Plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future."
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